what to write

again, not much to say today. all the late nights have caught up with me. i woke up with a stuffy nose and sore throat this morning. so i didn't do a lot today.

jesse and i spent quite a bit of time reading - which i love doing. he has favorite books that we would read 100 times in a row i would do it. but i am so glad he loves reading. it is a great time of cuddling and reading.

i am going to head to bed soon, i think, to try and fight off this cold before it really gets a hold on me.

slacking.....

ok so i have been a slacker as far as blogging is concerned. my family was here for mother's day weekend and then my sister, melissa, and nephew, jude, stayed for a couple more days. we did some shopping, some talking, some just plain hanging out. it was so good for my soul.

not much to say or much going on right now. i am working on redoing the office and breakroom area at work and am really excited about what it will look like and how it will change our working atmosphere - more professional and yet more relaxed too.

jesse was getting ready for bed tonight and just came and sat on the couch with me for a bit. i was just looking at him and it struck me how truly amazing he is to me. it is something i can't really put into words. i am extremely thankful for him and how he has changed our lives.

well, i am off to bed. melissa and i stayed up way too late the last few nights but it was so totally worth it. i love hanging out with her.

happy mother's day!

this is my second mother's day as a mom. there were times in my life i thought i would never get to be a mom and so mother's day is extra special.

mother's days in the past could be a really hard day. i loved the day because i got to celebrate my mom - who is the best mom in the world. but it was also an incredibly painful day - seeing all the other moms celebrating their children and motherhood.

but God is so faithful and i got to celebrate mother's day for the first time 2 years ago. what an amazing day that was! to look at my son and know God gave him to us.

anyways, happy mother's day to all the mothers and those who are waiting, please hold fast to your faith and hold fast to the Lord. He will be there for you.

i almost forgot

i almost forgot to do my blog today. it has been a long day and i am really tired. i am actually heading to bed before 11pm and that is something for me.

my family is coming for a visit this weekend. i am so excited about them coming. i love spending time with my family. they are my friends, not just my family. we always have a great time when we are together. i am extremely thankful for my family.

well, that is it for today. my brain has nothing more to give.

a good day

today was just a day. nothing special.

i went to work at the bakery with jesse. i answered phones, helped customers, did paperwork, etc. i got to see my friends - myhanh, molly, priscila, danny, anton, nick, fred. jesse got to hang out with me - helped me with labels, climbed flour bags, drew, played with his cars, ate an apple from molly (she's the apple lady to jesse).

jesse and i came home, had lunch and he had a nap. i did some cleaning, some relaxing. jesse woke up, philip came home, i went back to work to do orders. came home, had dinner, planted some of my tomatoes (please, no more frost). read to jesse and now he is down for the night.

see, nothing special. but it was a good day. thank you, Lord, for my guys. they are a true blessing to me.

more from the retreat

i am at the 2009 adoptive moms retreat. what an amazing time and what an amazing group of women. all of these women have chosen to adopt children - a lot or few, domestic or international, birth adoption or foster care. even if the children these women have brought into their homes aren't legally adopted in the end, they have adopted them into their hearts and have given that child what may be their first taste of unconditional, true love. these women truly amaze me. to hear their stories and see their hearts for the orphans, the unwanted, abused children of the world is such a picture of God's love for us.

i came here with two of my closest friends, who are also adoptive moms. i am so thankful for their friendship and support. they have helped make this weekend exactly what i needed.

i have been kind of at the end of my strength the last few weeks. not that anything is terribly wrong in my life. i think i have just needed time to recharge and didn't even realize it.

all of the workshops and speakers are great but for me, just time to laugh, talk and spend time with friends has been so rejuvenating. the time of worship has been needed too.

i feel a little guilty that i get this time and philip doesn't. i have talk to him and jesse a couple of times and they are having a good time together. and that was my prayer on the way up here, that this would be a special time for them too.

i am so thankful that i was able to go to this retreat.

my great weekend

ok, ok, so i missed few days. but i had a good excuse. i was at an adoptive moms retreat at a great lodge in easton, washington.

it was exactly what i needed. i needed some time to remind myself who stephanie was, besides mommy and wife. the time with my friends, lori and tina, was priceless. the laughter, the giving each other a hard time, the talks about nothing and the talks about everything filled me up.

but i think the thing that touched me the most was hearing all these other adoptive moms' stories. hearing about how God answered the cries of their hearts like He did mine. to realize that these women in answering the call that God put on their hearts changed the stories of the children that come into their hearts and homes.

spending time with these women reminded me how blessed i am and how precious the gift of jesse is. i know these things but need to be reminded when i get bogged down in the day to day life.

thank You, Lord, for my son, my heart.