don't waste time

jesse and i got back yesterday from visiting family. we stayed with my aunt and uncle and my mom, sister and nephew were there too. then we went to see my grandmother, who lives in an assisted living home. she had never met my son, jesse.

i have never had a great relationship with my grandmother. i always felt she didn't really like me. but i know she had a hard life and any relationship was difficult for her. i feel really sad for her - for all the things she has missed because of how she treated people. she never really let anyone get close.

but when we went to see her this time, she was somewhat different. i know that she is on alot of medication and stuff, but i think it is more than that. i think she is beginning to realize what she has missed out on. she was so glad to see jesse and jude, her great-grandsons. she was happy we were there and when it came time to leave, she didn't want us to go. i'm not sure it would have made any difference but i wish i would have tried harder to have a relationship with her.

it just reminded me not to waste time. relationships are so important to me and i have to work hard to make sure they are what they should be. this includes my relationship with God, my husband, my child, my family, my friends, and the new relationships God brings me.