i feel full

my mind is filled to the brim with many thoughts today and i feel full. and i am not sure what to do with most of them. i know they will eventually sort out but right now they just feel like a big bowl of spaghetti - all the noodles tangled together.

one thought noodle i have right now was brought on by a meeting i was at tonight. we were talking about how to reach more people and show them the hope of Jesus. and basically it comes down to being more real, more open to people and opportunities to build relationships with people we never have before. we have to be purposeful with our time, our lives, our hearts. and in being purposeful, we have to realize there will be a cost - a cost in our time, our lives, our hearts. and we have to be willing to pay that price - there is no half way about a relationship. we can't start a relationship and realize it is too expensive and bail.

and it has to be real. it can't be all about the crusade. it has to be about the relationship. it has to be about true caring for people.

can i pay the price? yes. will i be willing to pay the price? i have to be.